Thursday Thirteen #3

13 Things From My Past...

1. I used to be a strong member in the pentecostal church but am now questioning my faith in churches. I will always believe in God but have lost all faith in organized churches since the church that I had called home for so long betrayed me when I needed them the most.
2. When I felt betrayed by my church I strayed to the wrong side of the tracks and ended up smuggling coccaine into England. Was lucky enough to not be charged for it and I can't believe that I actually did it.
3. I suffer from depression and have felt betrayed by many in whom I thought were close friends that would be there forever. It seems that I am not allowed to do wrong but they are.
4. I have been engaged 5 times but have never walked down the aisle. Just have really bad taste with whom I fall in love with!
5. I suffer from insomnia because I need to drain my brain before I fall asleep to keep the nightmares away. Have had continuous nightmares since I was a kid. I had one that I couldn't get rid of until I was 20.
6. I don't remember my biological father. He was not allowed to be part of my life since I was 4.
7. My father was killed by lightening when I was 10 or 11... I still remember the day my mom found out.
8. I met my fathers side of the family when I was 20 and learned that I had a half brother and sister... they are great
9. I didn't start experimenting with drugs and sex until I was 19... never thought I would touch drugs (don't really any more) and always thought I would wait until marriage to have sex... now I am a single un-wed mother
10. I used to skip school to hangout at the pool hall since I was always ahead in my classes... became a really good pool player! *lol
11. When I was 6 I dented my kneecap when I tried to climb the kitchen counters to get something out of the cupboards... had to take the whole cupboard door to the hospital with me attatched to my knee... it took eighteen stitches and I still have the scar
12. When I was in grade 3 we lived in Toronto and a girl in grade 4 wanted my earrings and when I wouldn't give them to her she pounded my head against the brick wall outside. The school, parents or police wouldn't do anything about it so my mom and my nieghbour would take turns walking me to school and sitting in the playground.
13. When we were kids my sister who is 3 and 1/2 years younger than me would pick on me and beat me up... my mom would tell me to hit her back or whatever but I said that I couldn't because she was my sister... it took me four years and many times of her pulling on the bobbles in my hair and letting them go that I finally stood up to her and hit her back... i took the biggest hardest book I could find and hit her over the head with it... my mom was so proud of me! *lol*

*note* I have made many mistakes in my past but I have used them as learning experiences to shape who I am today.

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1. e
2. Kailani
3. Deanna
4. Jenny Ryan
5. Benson659
6. Nancy
7. Kelli
8. Kristarella
9. Southern Girl
10. Something's Missing
11. TC
12. Nicole (the great)
13. Barbara
14. Lyn
15. Dane Bramage
16. Mama Duck
17. Zoe
18. You Could Be Here!



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Thursday Thirteen #2

Thirteen Things I Do To Relax



1... Browse on the internet... I find it very relaxing to chat in the forums that I belong to, read and respond to my emails, chat to my friends on messenger, post my blogs and do anything on the internet! There is so much you can explore through the internet that it is fun, relaxing and very enjoyable
2... Sing!... Yes I love to sing! Whether it be singing along to the radio or a cd or just belting out a tune alcapelo it is not uncommon to hear me sing a tune.... I even use singing to the kids as an excuse to work my singing voice!
3... Write.... I like to write whether it be a letter to a loved one or an entry in one of my blogs or a peom or whatever I find writing to be a great way to relax. As a person that suffers from depression I find that once my thoughts are put down on paper (or on the computer) it is easier to move on in a more relaxing manner.
4... Knit/Crochet/Cross stitch... I am very artsy and creative so being able to use those abilities is very relaxing for me... it is not uncommon to see me working on a project or in my son's scrapbook late into the night. I just get lost in what I am doing and find it an easy way to unwind.
5... Play the piano... I may not be the best but I have always loved the piano and even though I dont have the space for my ever wanted baby grand piano I do have a nice keyboard tha suffices and lets me get lost in the feel of the music that I play.
6... sit in a dark room lit up with as many candles as I can find reading a really good book.... I havent had the time to do this in a long time but it is very relaxing and once again can last late into the night!
7... Cook/Bake... I LOVE to cook! The more people I can cook for the better! When we had another family living with us, putting 3 families under one roof, there were 11 people to cook for. Everyone hated to think of where to begin but I was just in heaven! It has to do with the fact of knowing that many people were satisfied by and enjoyed the meal that I put infront of them!
8... Go for a walk.... There is nothing like going for a walk to wind down and relax. I find that if I am stressed or busy and take the time to go for a walk I am able to see the good things that surround me and the fresh air relaxes me enough to think with a clear uncluttered head.
9... Talk to Myself... You may think it is funny or deranged that I am admitting that I talk to myself but it is something that I have always done! Once again as someone who suffers from depression it has been something that works for me when I need to clear my head to be able to proceed in my day. Once you say something outloud the thought is moved to another part of the brain and then you dont worry about it as much... or at least that is what I tell myself and it works. So if you ever meet me and find me talking to myself I am not crazy... well maybe a little, I am just doing what I have always done! *lol*
10.. Watch T.V. ... I have always enjoyed watching t.v. to relax. It isnt one of my best ways to relax and does take longer for my body and mind to wind down but when I am really interested in the show it does work! I will admit though that I am not a big t.v. watcher even though it is on all the time... I am so used to hearing the t.v. all day while the kids have it on while they play that it has become a soothing background sound as I complete the tasks that I am doing.
11... Watch my son sleep... If I am depressed or stressed I find watching my son sleep peacefully reminds me of the innocence of a child and how they see life through thier eyes. I also remind myself that no matter how hard things are I have been blessed with the most precious gift of all.... a child! That makes all my worries go away and I just sit there and watch the peaceful sleeping of the best thing that has ever happened to my life!
12... Reorganize... I find that when I am stressed or upset reorganizing is my way of giving myself a fresh start and the ability to see things in a new way. It may be something small like moving a knick-knack from here to there to redoing a whole room. Whatever it be it works for me.
13... Sleep... or try to sleep! On top of suffering from depression I also suffer from insomnia! So it is hard to get to sleep at night! But once I do get to sleep I am able to relax and let my body recharge! When I wake up I feel better and am able to start on a new page!




Links to other Thursday Thirteens!

1. e
2. Kailani
3. Deanna
4. Jenny Ryan
5. Benson659
6. Nancy
7. Kelli
8. Kristarella
9. Southern Girl
10. Something's Missing
11. TC
12. Nicole (the great)
13. Barbara
14. Lyn
15. Dane Bramage
16. Mama Duck
17. Zoe
18. You Could Be Here!



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A Meme

I found this meme while I was reading another blog tonight and I thought it would be a perfect blog to post since I don't know what to say today. I have a lot of thoughts running through my head but havent been able to put them into words yet! lol

Your Birthdate: October 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause. You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too. Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others. You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress. Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities Your power color: Crimson red Your power symbol: Snowflake Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Tonight I really hate drunk people!

Tonight we decided to go out for a few drinks... me, T and her mom. What do we end up doing? First T drags us to Aylmer to a BX93 video dance party which was ok but I just could not get into a groove to dance so a little thumbs down... good music but just wasnt in the mood! Ya you must think something is wrong with me cause I really love to dance and do it every chance I get! After we were done there we decided to make last call at Norma Jeans all the way back in London! Did we make itÉ Yes we did! Now when we got there I was in the mood to dance and stepped on the dance floor right away! But do you think I could dance? Noooooo... first it is a really small dance floor and there were too many people but ok I am used to that. What I couldnt handle and really hate is all the people that are drunk and bump into you... you finally find a way to move away from them so that you can dance and what do they do they follow you and take over the space that you just left!! Man I was ready to start shoving some people back because I am not a bumper pad for drunk people on the dance floor!!! I hate to disappoint you but we left in time that I didnt have to resort to bumping and shoving back... or running at the mouth that I sometimes like to do.... instead we went outside, grabbed a sausage at the vendor and got into our car and drove home... and just so you know we werent drunk so that is maybe why it pissed me off that much more! lol well hey if none of that happened then I guess I wouldnt have had anything to post about now would I? Anyways it is 3am and I need sleep.... I have been tired all day so now it is catching up to me and I can barely keep my eyes open! Have a good one!

Thursday Thirteen #1

Thirteen Things about Me... LadyLaker!




1... I am 27 and still get carded everywhere! *lol*
2... I am a Libra
3... I am a proud single mother
4... My son is my world and my everything!
5... I am very creative in many different ways
6... I love to sing and dance!
7... I am very outspoken and not afraid to say what is on my mind
8... I will write letters of complaint if I think it is necessary! *lol*
9... I will do anything for the people that I care about
10. I am a fairly new blogger and am having fun learning all sorts of things! (thanks Jacq!)
11.. I suffer from insomnia so don't be surprised to see that I have posted at 3 in the morning!
12.. I have had sex with someone of the same sex as me once
13.. I am very competetive! *lol*




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2. Kailani
3. Deanna
4. Jenny Ryan
5. Benson659
6. Nancy
7. You could be here!

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Hot Spots From My Holidays

OK I am back from my mini vacation in Barrie where I went to visit family and friends. To be honest I had a great time. I was able to relax! And I was amazed that other than a mini fight with my sister the night before I was heading back home it was a peaceful visit... I guess we all remembered to smoke our peacepipes before I got there! *lol*
Ok in all honesty I loved it... I did go out a little but for the most part I stuck close to the house and enjoyed the time with my parents and my sister's family who live in the basement! It was nice to see my nephew for a few days without being rushed! He is such a cutie and he had a great time playing with Robert! He would come up the stairs every morning hollering for Robert to join him for breakfast! It was sweet!
We also had many trips to the nursing home to see Nonna. She wasn't too pleased with me when I moved Robert and I here to London and she misses us very much. Even through all her pain and psych meds she was able to enjoy our little trips for coffee each day. Robert is one of her little benne ricca's and he loves going to visit her and everyone else at the nursing home! It was nice to see her for more than a few minutes since we don't know exactly how much long she will be with us. I keep telling everyone that even though her health isn't that great she is from a family of strong Italian women where they tend to live long lives. I think she will fight as long as she can!
I also got to go out for dinner with a few friends to a bar/restaurant called Sticky Fingers. We were going to check out one of the cooks that my friend Kathy has a thing for... he is not bad! The fun part was how we were all plotting on how we would embarrass her! We didn't of course but it was fun to see her face go red anyways! After dinner that night Kathy, Kim and I decided to go out for some drinks and dancing. I thought it would be nice to go to a club that I used to in the old days.. mistake... I forgot about the feeling of being a sardine and I didn't like the fact that we were almost the oldest people there. We decided to leave and go back to Sticky's and let Kathy oogle over her cook! We had a blast... she thought he would think it crazy that we were there twice in one night but Kim and I played drunk really well and he didn't think twice... men are so easy to fool! *lol*
But as far as that story goes that is not the end! We went back for dinner the night before I had to come home so that Kathy could spend some time with Robert. This time it was Kathy, Robert and I and Kathy's highschool friend Cheri. We once again had a blast teasing Kathy about her cook and then it dawned on me... when the waitress brought us our bill there was aa comment card with it. I decided to comment on the restaurant as well as thank Joe for the wonderful food he had cooked us... Kathy read it and was scared about me handing it in! Well I gave it to the waitress and she put it in the comment box for me!!! I know I am so mean... but that isn't all! I also wrote her cell number on a napkin and asked another waitor that we knew dave to give it to Joe for Kathy. She couldn't believe what I did... that time her face was really red and I think she was ready to kill me! *lol* Don't worry I knew that I was allowed to give him her number before hand I just did it in a way that she didn't expect and was funny! And it all worked out in the end cause as she told me later she ended up hanging out with him later in the night! See I am a good friend even if it takes a while to realize it! Ha ha ha!
So all in all that was pretty much my trip to Barrie... or at least the highlites other than our usual trips for family dinners at Eastside Mario's with Nonna or to the Manderin since we all love Chinese food so much! I hope I didn`t disappoint you! *grins*