A Thought to Ponder....

As I was growing up my mother always told me I was born into the wrong era. Then I had people tell me that I had an old soul. I always sort of knew what that meant or at least had a basic understanding of what people were saying when they told me that, but the other day curiousity got a hold of me and I decided to look up old souls on the internet. That is where I stumbled upon a blog written by Steve Gunn talking about old souls.

I found his blog to be very intersting especially when I stumbled across his list of key signs of an old soul. I found this list to be very interesting because I could relate to every key on it. Here is the list:

The key signs of an old soul

· Giving and caring often putting others first

· Had a difficult romantic life often with much pain and disappointment

· More than likely had a soulmate relationship

· Things just seem to happen to you and around you, often becoming very dramatic through the seemingly extreme reactions of others

· Events repeat themselves

· Have trouble connecting with your family

· Somehow know you're different

· Have some psychic intuition and 'just knowing' things

· Find that you have deeper emotions and passions than most people

· People have extreme reactions to you - some just adore you and some seem to really dislike you yet you behave the same to everyone

· Have an inner creative passion

· Suffer lots of jealousy

· Often perceived wrongly

· Feel your don't have much free will, like your life is being controlled by some outside force

· Often feel 'stuck' like events just keep on happening to you time after time

Now not every key mentioned above relates to my every day life, but I can relate to them all from one point in my life or another. When I read that list I was thinking to myself "that is me! that is me!" Nothing could have so close to pinning me to a tee as that list. And from that list and other things that Steve talks about I have come to a better understanding of what an old soul is as well as to who I am as a person. It has also intrigued me to look into the topic more to see what else I can find out about myself and of being an old soul.

This is a new interest of mine so if you have any related sites or blogs that you think would be of interest to me please forward them on and I will gladly take a peek. This is definately something I want to continue looking into to see what else I can find out... I know I have only touched the tip of the iceberg and would like to dig a little deeper.

Giving Credit Where Credit is Due...

Well today I was sitting here and decided that since I have returned to my abandoned ramblings that to get back into the groove and to feel good about the place I lay my inner thoughts I needed a change. Don't get me wrong I loved and still do love the old layout that I had but that was me as a past rambler not here in the present.
So to help with the changes that I was looking for I turned to a wonderful friend that has always come to the rescue when I need a design or even help with my own dabblings in the world of creativity. Thank you Jacquelyn (aka SugarnSpice) for the great job you did on making my rambling world so beautiful! I love it! I love it! I love it!
Now I can ramble on and feel good about the place I leave a piece of myself every time I type a key....

Dreams, Dreams Go Away, Don't Come Back Another Day

I don't even know where to begin with this. All I know is that my dreams are coming back and I don't want them. I thought I had managed to push them into the furthest corner of my subconscious in hopes of locking them away forever.
You are probably thinking "Why is it such a bad thing to have dreams?" Well to you dreams may not be that bad but to me having a dream is one of the most terrifying things I can have happen to me. When I dream it brings out the twistedness of my mind, the cold sweats and a terrifying feeling within my whole being.
I don't even know how or where to begin to explain my dreams. I can start by saying that my dreams are not those of a normal person where they dream about love and goals or who they aspire to be one day. No I could not be that lucky and have what I consider to be normal dreams. I know I don't believe in the word normal but that is the only way I can think of explaining what my dreams are not.
My dreams may come the instant my head hits the pillow or not until I am almost ready to wake up but either way they terrify me, confuse me and drive me crazy to the point I have become an insomniac in hopes of making the dreams go away. I had succeeded for a while and then under a time of stress they had come back. Not as often but they were there and just as vivid as always. There to terrorize me and remind me that I don't always have the control of my being that I sometimes think I have. Then I managed to rid of them again. Back to my dreamless sleeps. Back to feeling somewhat normal, somewhat at peace.
And then it happened. I had a dream. But this time I am not sure what to make of this dream. It doesn't have a story line like most of mine do. It's not as detailed like most of mine are, nor as vivid. But it was point blank there and has caused me to ponder and wonder and make me think there is more to it than what meets the eye.
You see I don't dream unless there is a reason. And I definately don't dream about him unless there is something my dreams are trying to tell me. I don't know what to make of this dream or what its purpose is. All I do know is that from past experience I cannot ignore this dream. I need to find out what it is trying to tell me so that I can make some sense of it.
You see the person that I dreampt about is more than just any person to me. He is my soulmate, my best friend, the other part that makes me feel complete. And with that being said comes with all that a strong bond and connection. We are linked emotionally, spiritually, completely.
Well I can sit here and drive myself even more crazy trying to think of a reason this dream came to me but for now it will do me no good. The answer will hopefully come to me and hopefully soon and without many more dreams. For now I will have to just accept that I had this dream and let it all play out and see what happens from there. So for tonight I am just going to say goodnight and head to bed and wait for the answer that I seek with the dread of the possibility of having another unwanted dream.