Dreams, Dreams Go Away, Don't Come Back Another Day

I don't even know where to begin with this. All I know is that my dreams are coming back and I don't want them. I thought I had managed to push them into the furthest corner of my subconscious in hopes of locking them away forever.
You are probably thinking "Why is it such a bad thing to have dreams?" Well to you dreams may not be that bad but to me having a dream is one of the most terrifying things I can have happen to me. When I dream it brings out the twistedness of my mind, the cold sweats and a terrifying feeling within my whole being.
I don't even know how or where to begin to explain my dreams. I can start by saying that my dreams are not those of a normal person where they dream about love and goals or who they aspire to be one day. No I could not be that lucky and have what I consider to be normal dreams. I know I don't believe in the word normal but that is the only way I can think of explaining what my dreams are not.
My dreams may come the instant my head hits the pillow or not until I am almost ready to wake up but either way they terrify me, confuse me and drive me crazy to the point I have become an insomniac in hopes of making the dreams go away. I had succeeded for a while and then under a time of stress they had come back. Not as often but they were there and just as vivid as always. There to terrorize me and remind me that I don't always have the control of my being that I sometimes think I have. Then I managed to rid of them again. Back to my dreamless sleeps. Back to feeling somewhat normal, somewhat at peace.
And then it happened. I had a dream. But this time I am not sure what to make of this dream. It doesn't have a story line like most of mine do. It's not as detailed like most of mine are, nor as vivid. But it was point blank there and has caused me to ponder and wonder and make me think there is more to it than what meets the eye.
You see I don't dream unless there is a reason. And I definately don't dream about him unless there is something my dreams are trying to tell me. I don't know what to make of this dream or what its purpose is. All I do know is that from past experience I cannot ignore this dream. I need to find out what it is trying to tell me so that I can make some sense of it.
You see the person that I dreampt about is more than just any person to me. He is my soulmate, my best friend, the other part that makes me feel complete. And with that being said comes with all that a strong bond and connection. We are linked emotionally, spiritually, completely.
Well I can sit here and drive myself even more crazy trying to think of a reason this dream came to me but for now it will do me no good. The answer will hopefully come to me and hopefully soon and without many more dreams. For now I will have to just accept that I had this dream and let it all play out and see what happens from there. So for tonight I am just going to say goodnight and head to bed and wait for the answer that I seek with the dread of the possibility of having another unwanted dream.